Semarang

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age of 25, my last 1 year of first half twenties

Well, I got confused about how is my life now. After succeed to finish my thesis with AB mark two-three month ago, I am totally blank out. What should I do? I am troubled when I think about my future and ended doing nothing except 'plays' in this last two month.

Then as you know (read in my previous post maybe), I will attend graduation at February next year cause I failed to make it right time previous at September I have to say that I lost of confidence and direction. Although it's not like I got expelled, but somehow I don't satisfied. The reason is :

• I take too much time for doing and thinking about things I really don't need so I spent 7 years (SEVEN YEARS!!!) to get graduated from collage. I really feed my life is horrible enough because I lost 3 years already than everyone at my age! Its not a short time I know, that is why I feel so sorry, depressed and always blame my self over it.
• I never learn from my fail. I got distracted very easily. I can not make any goal is right on time. I am too lazy and apathetic so I always repeat mistakes. And back to feel guilty in the end.
• I don't really believe in hope or dream, deep in my heart. I realize that I already LOST. There's no start over at thing called life rather I am dead and reborn.
• I am get hurt easily, thats why I was so coward. I never get out from my safe zone.
• I blame others (specially my family condition) for this fortune-less life. 
• I never like my self, I always get envy when others have a very nice positive personality and I always fight my self over tiniest things. I always wonder why I am such a coward?

And tell me that money is not everything in life. But it is very important. I have to pay my graduates fee about IDR 1.300.000 and I only got less than half of it. My family debts because of me... I bet now it's worthy more than a new motorbike already LOL. And those all equally my burden. I don't know how should I start. I don't have a job because I just quit working part-time three month ago. YES I AM A NEET. With debts.

VERY VERY ASHAMED.

Okay, enough complaining. I need a job. Two weeks ago, I got an interview call and I do that interview for a tiny new company that need Japanese interpreter staff at Semarang (my city name) and actually I got another call from that company which tell me that I passed and can work in their office. But they will let me know in next call when I should start work. Hmmm... Isn't it a bit suspicious? I need work immediately and I afraid to expect about this. They mention once about I have to paid for training course as interpreter. It's suspicious right?

In other side, I got at least two interview invitation at Jakarta. Do I need to try it as well? Or I have to look for other job here at Semarang?
I don't have money to go there, that was the main trouble. And then, it was about 2 years I didn't go to Jakarta. I am also afraid to go alone but I have no one to ask with.
I need to raise money before end of January for my graduation fee. YES! JUST ONE MONTH!

What I can do? Is any body could tell me any advice? #I try to not expect someone read it and help me

Well.... Have a good day.

Hello, lets memorize the things~

I dont know when the last time I've draw... And sometimes I really miss it. I want to do much things start from now... My week-ends will be great! coz now I start to go to campus oftenly... I try to focus on work day and I will spent my week-ends for fangirling things only. Because, I won't fail again this time. I will really really work out my thesis no matter what small it is. You got my words... I shall not to flail over Arashi everyday and make them dissapoint of me! I believe Arashi gave me positif feed back! I shall not stain it :) Sore jya, ganbarimashoo!!! ^^

 

Sekar Mayang Renounce

Tadi pagi merupakan Grand Opening (pembukaan) acara Bulan Bahasa dan Seni di Fakultas Bahasa dan Seni Universitas Negeri Semarang dengan tema "FBS UnitY". Acara sesi pertama adalah senam pagi bersama dimana dosen dan mahasiswa bersama2 bersenam pagi ria.. ^^ acara kemudian dibuka oleh bapak dekan FBS,kemudian disusul sambutan2 termasuk dari Rektor Unnes.. lalu pada sarapan duk tentunya.. (panitia belakangan!)
Kemudian sesi kedua adalah arak2an mayang mengeliling Fakultas FBs.. Cape jugaaa.. yang kasian yang baya2 mayang etc. Wkwkwkwkw.. Marching band-nya kurang semangaat!! panitiany kecapean cz smalem pada lembur bz kerjaan dekdok katanya (aq mantan dekdok PPA merasa tergugah) knyanteen smpe harus ngelembur wat nyelesein ntu.. (ga pada tidur..)
terakir penampilan solo vokal nyanyi tembang2 lawas & penampilan Hima2.. (6 Hima di FBS) Unik2,dr BSA q seperti biasa nari sakura (cowo2 didandanin cewesuper nguakakk!!), dari SRD malah prosesi motong pitik dan segala unsur mistisny~
acara selese jam 12 siang, (padahal panitia kumpul jm stgh 6 pagi n blon sarapan)..
ternyata g dapet maksi..
hiks2..
yang terakir panitia usung2 panggung,tratak,layos,alat musik karawitan,sound sistem n plus wajib bli Axis biar target penjualan penuh en bisa jadi sponsor acara qt lagi.. wkwkwkwkw..!!


q pulang dengan perut kosong.. (cuma dapet snack tp q dobeel c tadi..)

tanoshii ichi nichi,satu hari nyang menyenagkan..

Potony menyusul..

hushush..

sisky.slive: so?
ritsuki_hikarino: immposible..
sisky.slive: ?
ritsuki_hikarino: i know my self better, and i cant do that..
sisky.slive: I know you know yourself better
sisky.slive: and I know you can
sisky.slive: you don't have any idea how strong I am
sisky.slive: but the most interesting thing is you don't know how I can turn other people
sisky.slive: as strong as me
sisky.slive: but the main problem is
sisky.slive: I often hesitate
sisky.slive: when I teach people
ritsuki_hikarino: mm..
sisky.slive: ?
sisky.slive: that's my name
sisky.slive: mm
ritsuki_hikarino: un..
ritsuki_hikarino: yupe..
sisky.slive: hmm
sisky.slive: I 've ever said
sisky.slive: for me, they skill got no problem
sisky.slive: I know how they played well
sisky.slive: and I even know hot to counter them
sisky.slive: how
sisky.slive: if I beaten them, nobody would care or recognize my ability
sisky.slive: dakara.....

aq dan temen q tu2

tutu itu super lemot,mawe gmn lg,temen q yg satu ini agak aneh dg duniany sendiri,bisa dibilang ky anak autis..
wkwkwkwkwk..
tapi lucuu bgt,aq swayang tu2..

lebaai...

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Ini foto yg tidak disengaja tp lumyang aq bangeet...

wkakakak..
yg senelahq ni temen kost..

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